When you’re a self-proclaimed—and probably publicly
recognized—Monica Geller, it’s extremely difficult to accept the fact that not
everything is in your control.
While I do take almost obsessive control at times over what
I eat, how my house looks, what shoes Randel can and can’t wear (just
kidding—kinda), I really struggle with not being able to make all my loved ones
happy all the time.
I have this almost uncontrollable desire to make sure my
parents are taken care of, my brothers have everything they need, my friends
know how important they are, etc.
It's incredibly hard for me to know someone
is hurting/lost/insecure.
It’s even harder to know I can’t do anything about it.
So in light of the devastating tornado that tore through
Moore, Oklahoma, yesterday, I’m feeling particularly helpless.
I can’t help thinking how different life was yesterday
morning. As I got ready for work today, I started crying thinking about how
some people don’t have a work to go to. Some people don’t have a home to get
ready in. Some people aren’t here anymore.
While I wasn’t directly affected by the tragedy (in that my
house is still standing and all my friends and family are safe and accounted
for), I have friends and coworkers who lost their homes.
I wish I could bring back everything they lost—including the
taken-for-granted feeling that home is a safe place. I wish my two-bedroom
house could hold everyone (and every animal) who was displaced. I wish I could
hug them all and let them know that people around the state, the country, and
the world are ready and more than willing to do whatever we can to help.
Generous corporations and OKC’s very own Kevin Durant have
shown that with their monetary donations and ongoing support.
I don’t have a million dollars to give. I don’t have a
pantry stocked full of enough food for all those who woke up without homes
today. I don’t have a closet full of enough clothes for those who only have the
ones they fled their homes in.
What I do have is a heart that’s full of hope, a desire to
volunteer in any way I can, a brings-tears-to-my-eyes love for my caring and resilient state, and faith that God will see us through.